Showing posts with label random musings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label random musings. Show all posts

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Avoidance issues

Itʻs been a while... a very long while. Avoidance is probably the best word to describe my "writing" absence lately. I say "writing" absence because Iʻve continued to follow my favorite blogs, but unfortunately have not commented or updated my own. Upon the culmination of last school year, I was exhausted, to say the least. Burnt out, annoyed, frustrated, and non-motivated would be some of the adjectives I was feeling. Honestly, writing was the last thing I wanted to do. But, as the summer quickly came to its end, I packed up the last of my belongings in my former classroom and dove head-first into the deep unknown and began teaching at another school. I needed a new challenge, to refresh and renew; a place that motivated me to work harder each and every single day for my students. That place has been found, and I am truly in my element. The school that I now teach at has a brand-spanking new middle school building. Not only is everything amazingly new, but the space is an open learning space. Yup. No walls. Team teaching like you've never imagined.

My goal is get back on the horse and blog it up once again! Striving to catch up with those I haven't left comments for, return to SOL Tuesdays, and blog about my new adventures in my "wall-less" classroom (which I love, btw).

Ahh... deep breath, exhale. It feels so satisfying to be writing again.

Until tomorrow...

Thursday, July 19, 2012

I love a great notebook!

As I meandered through the school supply aisles at my favorite big-chain store, my eyes suddenly shifted to the rack of notebooks below as if they were magnets and "Eureka!" there it was. A fine young notebook with a stack of cassette tapes pictured on its cover! (If you read my post from a day before here, you will understand my odd excitement).

Hello, new writer's notebook!


Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Best of...

I met with my new colleagues today to begin planning out the start of the new school year. We begin school on August 7, and I am really looking forward to this new journey in my life. Before we began to get into the nitty-gritty things, we shared some information about our names with one another and our teaching philosophies. Personally, I really abhor sharing my teaching philosophy. There always seems to be this pressure to articulate it perfectly and I find it more to be like a "working document," always being modified based on my teaching experiences. Anyway, I was lucky that today's sharing time wasn't as awkward as I thought it was going to be; in fact, something that one of my colleagues said really caught my attention, and I really want to remember what he said. He briefly explained to us his personal teaching philosophy, and then began to share his thinking process with us. He explained that when he teaches, he thinks about the teachers who impacted his life and how they taught him. He described his teaching as a mixed tape, taking the "best of" and incorporating it into his own teaching style.

I love the idea of taking the "best of." If we take the time to stop and reflect, we can discover that there are so many influential teachers in our lives. So I did exactly that.

My "Best of"

2nd grade, Miss Campos who gave me the brightest smile every single morning. She made me feel as if she was the lucky one to have me in her class.

4th grade, Mrs. Liu who was creative and dynamic. She set high expectations for her students and guided us to success. We also performed some really hilarious plays in her class!

5th grade, Mrs. Underkofler who chose great class novels -- A Wrinkle In Time; From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler; The Indian in the Cupboard

7th grade, Ms. Arce always listened to what I had to say and made faith important in my life.

8th grade, Mrs. Adair who first introduced me to the wonders of learning History. I loved how she was willing to mark up our classroom maps, so we could see how the Union soldiers advanced on the Confederate Army.

High School English, Mrs. Morey helped build my confidence when it came to reading and writing. She also had a knack for putting me in my place when my "I know everything attitude" became a bit much.

High School English, Mrs. Crawford who introduced me to Mr. William Shakespeare. 'Nuff said.

High School American History, Mr. Kaufmann who told me that my charm would take me far, but working hard in school would take me even further. He sat and lectured, but his knowledge of American History made him an amazing storyteller.

College History Professor, Dr. Pierre Asselin who I am truly indebted to forever. Dr. Asselin fueled my passion for learning about the world.

College Professor, Mr. Richard Rapson believed in me and took the time to talk to me about my future and encouraged me to push myself toward greater things. A good listener, mentor, and friend.

Maybe one day I can be on someone's "Best of" list.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Summer + Dads

I am disappointed in myself that my last post was on June 5, but I guess it shows how much fun I have been having so far this summer. It has been a busy couple of weeks with friends in town, family get-togethers, sleeping in, lots of beach time, staycations and more! It has been an amazing summer so far and the rest of it looks even brighter.

Although it is summer, I think I need to set some goals for the remainder of break.

1. Read at least five more books... hurry up and finish Jay Asher's Thirteen Reasons Why

2. Post pics from my "work-vacation" on blog

3. Brainstorm some new writing lessons for the upcoming school year

4. Exercise

5. Clean the bathrooms!

Yes, this is quite a general list of goals. No solid deadlines. No pressure. Relax. It's summer.

:)

AND... HAPPY FATHER'S DAY to all who care for children... 
you are priceless.
My husband and daughter playing Konane, an ancient Hawaiian game similar to Checkers.




Friday, June 1, 2012

It's not goodbye...

Today is my final day teaching at a wonderful school. As I venture on to new challenges at another school, this is the letter I wrote to the faculty and staff.


Hello, Maryknoll family.

Today is my final day here. It is bittersweet to have an opportunity to start a new journey, but at the same time have to leave the place that helped shape who you've become and what you believe in. That is how I have been feeling this past week. The friendships that were built throughout my six years here will always be ones that I will treasure. I thought that the students would be the number one thing I would miss, but I've come to the realization that it will be the people I worked beside and those who have mentored me -- Admin, Faculty, and Staff. Saying hello to people in the work room and in passing was always important to me because I wanted to get to know everyone. There are so many special memories! 

One memory that resonates with me is when I was pregnant with Emalia and the outpouring of support and generosity throughout that time period, as well as the amazing baby shower that we had! That is my favorite part about being at this school; the love and sense of community that exists. I will take those values along with me and make sure that people know I am from Maryknoll. 

I have been given endless opportunities during my time here, and I hope that you will keep in touch with me. I'll send pictures of Emalia growing up, and hopefully in her school uniform...although now I will be paying tuition! :) My family and I thank you for everything, and I wish each and every one of you the best as we all continue on our own personal journeys. 

It certainly is not goodbye...just a "see you soon!"

Me ke aloha,
Mandy

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Born to Learn

 "Adolescence is not a problem; it's an opportunity."


Take some time for Born to Learn

Monday, May 21, 2012

Missing: Motivation

If I could buy some motivation, I'd be willing to pay a pretty hefty price. It is amazing, in a not-so-amazing way, how unmotivated I've been feeling over the past couple of weeks. My motivation tank is on "E" and there aren't any refueling stations to be found! Seriously.

We have two more weeks of school left before summer break officially starts, yet I still have so much to do. Having loads of work to accomplish isn't so good if you've misplaced your motivation. My desk looks like a hurricane blew through and FEMA is still nowhere to be found. I still have student papers to read, provide feedback, and grade before the quarter wraps up next week. My students' attention spans are shorter than my one-year old daughter's, so my patience meter has just about reached negative numbers; however, I must keep my cool and send my students off gleaming with positivity!

With summer quickly approaching, one would assume that a teacher's amount of work would subside, but that is a myth. I'll be heading to a different school in August, so my brain and heart are in conflict with one another. My brain says to start focusing on my next adventure, which means that I should be looking at curriculum maps, syllabi, and lessons I need to rework in order to make a smooth transition into my new team. My heart wants to hold on to the current school year my current students because I am already beginning to miss them terribly. I wish my brain and heart would desire the same thing, so they could work in collaboration with my body to: 1) Finish grades and report card comments; 2) Clean, purge, and pack up all that needs to go with me; and 3) Enjoy my final two weeks with the students I love at the school that will always have a place in my heart.

So, whoever is in charge of motivation out there in our big ol' universe, could you please send some my way? Hmm... why do I always have some motivation on reserve for blogging???


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

A love letter

Dear Summer,

I long for your immediate arrival. My students are driving me crazy, and I am eager to send them on their way. I can't stop reminiscing about your warm rays wrapped around my air-conditioned classroom freezing body, while your encouraging waves tickle my toes as I sit upon the heated sand, inhaling your fresh air. 

Looking at old photographs from last year's adventures with you makes me misty and homesick. Our bond is so special, we don't even have to travel anywhere; we can just stay home and enjoy one another's company for two and a half amazing months! Yes, I know that everything cannot be perfect, and I will still have to complete some work and plan for the upcoming Fall, but oh my, I do not mind working if I know that you will remain beside me, outside of my four-walled cave. 

We can do so many things together! I can see us shedding our pale skin together and embracing the UV rays as we catch up on our book stacks and read for pleasure. We can create new lesson plans together, ones that will tackle the old ones and bring joy to my students. We can articulate with the new middle school team I will be working with in the Fall, and overwhelm myself with fresh ideas and creative people. 

I get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about you! It seems you are so close, yet so far away. When will you hurry my way? The hubby and daughter impatiently await your return as well. Please do not stay away any longer. My heart, brain, and sanity are lost without you.

Yours truly,

(Exhausted) Seventh grade Teacher

Friday, May 11, 2012

Indifference

Indifference was her name, I heard
and she couldn't
have cared
less.
Unconcerned for
what is
best.
No one saw her
pain and
stress.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

"Those" kids

I've been doing a lot of reflecting on my vocation as a middle school teacher lately. My introspection is fueled by the fact that I will teaching at a different school next August. Although the students will be the number one thing I will miss about my current school, I have to be honest and admit that there are students who I will miss more than others. These particular students are not necessarily the smartest of the bunch or the ones with perfect behavior; they are the students who have kept me on my toes, day in and day out. These particular students have probably endured my wrath more than others have, but every single one chooses to stay in my classroom during recess to hangout and "talk story," so I guess they realize there IS a point to my madness. :)

Prior to the start of the school year, my homeroom had already received the dubious distinction of being the worst-behaved class in seventh grade, maybe the entire middle school. Year after year, I see the same patterns occurring in the class placement. All the "behaviorally challenged" students are sent my way. I could either be upset about this or take it as a compliment. I choose the latter. In fact, these students are actually the very caring and compassionate to each other; they just struggle with self-control. Typical 21st century middle school students. Or any century, for that matter. 

And that is where my struggle lies. lays? Saying good-bye to this unforgettable group of twelve and thirteen year olds; not knowing when or where I will bump into them again, wondering what they've been up to and how they are doing. Will their eighth grade teachers accept them as they are and work with their strengths, while strengthening their weaknesses? Or will they look at these kids with scorn on their faces and sarcasm jumping from their tongues? I hope, with a little time and lots of patience, they will discover what I adore about these kids even if they need to dig extra deep to let these lights shine. 

Monday, April 30, 2012

I zig, you zag.


I zig
  You zag
                    And no one else
                          knows our pattern
                                    We figure it out
                               Moment by moment 
               Remembering
        How
and
        Why
               We fell in love
                          Working hard
                                    to keep it alive
                          Uphill, downhill
               no other
       can replace
If you ever
       were to go
               My heart
                          an empty space.
                                                You zig
                          I zag
                Like a puzzle
         piece
not all will
         fit
                each day
                          discovering
                                                two halves
                          a whole!
                We zig,
          We zag,
but still intwined
           by fingers
                 heart,
                          and mind.
                                                The End.
                          

                           

We Are Young

Every school year, my middle school students seem to gravitate to one particular song that they feel defines their generation. Most times, I am somewhat confused as to why they consider certain songs "defining" of their generation, but regardless of their reasoning, I am always pleased to see their enthusiasm boil over when "their song" is played. Yes, most of the time, my students miss the underlying meanings of some of the song's lyrics, but I appreciate that they can create their own understanding from what they hear and know. Currently, the song that gets the most hits on my students' ipods is We Are Young (band: Fun featuring Janelle Monae). Below is the video for the song.
                                                                 



We Are Young
                                                
Tonight
We are young
We can set this world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

I was reminiscing and thinking back to my good ol' days and trying to remember what songs defined my generation. Since the list was long, I thought of a song that had that "damn the man!" attitude, so I settled on the New Radicals' You Get What You Give. They were probably a one-hit wonder because I can't think of anything else they sang. Oh well.




You Get What You Give

If you feel your dream is dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget you only get what you give


I like to think back to my days in middle school (Junior High) and high school and compare my experiences to those that my students go through each day. There are both similarities and differences, but the one thing that definitely surpasses generation gaps, is the connection young people can make with music. 




Saturday, April 21, 2012

Stressed


I was perusing some design/diy blogs (I love reading d.i.y. blogs, but rarely never actually d.i.m), and I came upon Amy's be.designs blog where I found the above graphic with the most marvelous anagram. 
It was the perfect reminder for me to work on letting go of things that I either cannot control or have to do anyway, so why be stressed about it? Like a dessert, just eat it and enjoy it!




Friday, April 20, 2012

Remember when...


the TELEPHONE edition






The first cell phones were gray bricks... and you certainly did not own one?


Pay phones were easy to locate and making a phone call cost 25 cents?


Everyone's household had a landline telephone?


Memorizing phone numbers was customary and was done easily?


The word "phone" was not synonymous with "iPhone"?


You didn't have to be paranoid when someone took out their phone, in fear of being recorded and then posted publicly for all the world to see your bizarre behaviors?


Kids couldn't text message during class?


There were no telephone rules at school because... well, you didn't need them!


People did not bump into you as you walked on the sidewalk because their eyes were glued to their smartphones?


You actually called someone and heard their voice rather than "communication via text message"?


Thursday, April 19, 2012

Quotes: My Top Ten



10. "Respect my Authori-tah!" 
-Cartman from South Park

9. Pull your weeds and plant good seeds.

8. "For you, a thousand times over!"
-Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner

7. "In the end, everything's gonna be alright and if it's not alright, then it's not the end."
 -Bill Rancic

6. The more open to possibility, the more possibilities open.

5. "The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, But in Ourselves."
-Shakespeare, Julius Caesar

4. "No one can make you feel inferior without your consent."
-Eleanor Roosevelt

3. "Love is keeping the promise anyway."
-John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

2. "The time is always right, to do what is right."
-MLK, Jr.

1. "In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer."
-Albert Camus

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Paradise

Pristine coastlines
White sand
Warm, translucent waters
Unaffordable real estate
Local access to beaches denied

Graceful hula dancers
Handsome brown-skinned surfers
Carefree barefoot children
Domestic violence
Low math and science scores

Untouched beauty
Aloha spirit
Unique island lifestyle
Homeless tent cities
Development over agricultural lands

Paradise.







Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Opportunity


(knock, knock)

Who’s there?       
                                  
                                                                        Opportunity.
                                                                        And I’m only    
                                                                        knocking
                                                                        once.

Why should I let you
in?
I’ll have to start from
scratch.

New friends.
New ideas.
New challenges.

                                                                        New friends.
                                                                        New ideas.
                                                                        New challenges.
                                                                        New YOU.

Constant change.
                           
                                                                        Change is constant.


If it ain’t broke,
why fix it?

                                                                        Trepidation and time
                                                                        will break you.
                                                             
                                                                        Fear dismantles
                                                                        d  r  e  a  m  s  .


And life’s regrets,
permanent.

                                                                        Be Brave.
                                                                        Be Bold.
                                                                        Be Buoyant.


Welcome.
Please come in.






Monday, April 16, 2012

New books!


So, instead of a new pair of shoes or a new purse, I often prefer to buy books that I am interested in reading. Of course, I would love a pair (or two) of new shoes and a new purse (like a need a hole in my head!), but the thrill I get from picking up a new read lasts longer than the blisters from a new pair of shoes. 

I am a middle school teacher, so it is very important that I read what my students read. Lucky for me, YA Fiction is my favorite genre! Currently, time is something I am always searching for, so my book stack continues to grow taller, but as I strive to conquer that stack, I remember something that a very intelligent woman once said about reading, "Find the time, Make the time, Take the time." 
And that's just what I am going to do with these new titles. Oh, the thrill!

 

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Moments like this one


I came into the living room as soon as I was done washing the dinner dishes and saw my husband asleep (snoring, actually) and our daughter snoozing on her father's chest. I literally took a deep breath and sat beside the couch they were on. I stared intently as so many thoughts traveled through my mind. I felt selfish for grumbling to myself just a little while ago as I washed the dishes. Reminding myself of the amazing life I am blessed with happens frequently because lately I've been allowing the "downer" days at work affect me. 

A tender snore from my husband and an angelic little girl fast asleep gave me a feeling which immediately rushed over me. I live for these two people and although some days are more challenging than others, this type of moment solidifies in me, the feeling of content, satisfaction, and unwavering happiness. Trudging through the daily mud of life can sometimes get the best of you, but as I reflect, the worst of times will only be the worst if you allow them to be. 

How lucky am I to have these two special people in my life; two people who will love me unconditionally, offer support, and make me laugh. I made sure that I captured this special moment because I want to be able to look at this photograph again and understand that my ability to inhale and exhale comes from moments like this one. 


Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Just Joking!

What do you call a computer that sings?


 

Adele.

:)


I love jokes. Along with jokes usually comes laughing, smiling, happiness, and a well-deserved escape for thirty seconds (hopefully) of laughter that makes your cheeks ache. Encouraging my students to bring or create (clean) jokes to share with the class is something we enjoy doing. One of my seventh grade students told me the above joke the other day, and I thought it was a great one! Normally, I hear the same jokes and riddles from my students each year, but this one was a new one and I love Adele.